In reviewing these past weekly reports I detected a theme. Its about time, (pun intended), there is a theme of time and making good use of it. From what we choose to do, who we choose to do it with, what we choose to eat and how we choose to do it.
I don't have to admit to having excuses, because I have 4 children. I don't run strictly on my time, I function on kid time. When the demands of my children's schedule presented me with a very clear obstacle in maintaining consistent training I used alternative methods to get the physical exercise in (creative thinking). When the unexpected emotional process and poor planning arose with the holiday visit from my oldest daughter I practiced acceptance and made a well thought out adjustment.-- Rather than being inconsistent with the Couch-to-5k program I choose a flex week which allowed me free run time and enabled me to be true to myself as well as being honest with the program log.
This past week so much has happened, from the kids having a weekend visit with their dad, to Christmas performances, to basketball practices, to having a sick kid, to having a broke down car and a broken phone. -- out of all these fine opportunities for me to create an excuse to avoid my training (self care) the thought to do so never crossed my mind. ----Until I realized on Saturday my crashed phone meant the loss of my Couch-to5k app. MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT!! out of all the loss and turmoil I experienced this past week losing that app was the hardest hit I took! I took a deep breath, imagined my run log that I was so proudly watching as the accomplishments grew--realizing I will never see them again-- and then I laughed! "well I guess I'm done then! no more training." As I said those words out loud I felt my body shake at its core! It was crying, "No.NO. Please NO." and I looked into the mirror and I said to myself there's no way that will stop me! Then I began thinking of ways to adapt to this huge external loss. I can have a free run week, (until my replacement phone comes), and then I just start it again making some modifications to catch me back up to speed. I was so excited when my phone arrived to find the app transfer over--but there was no data, just the app. Better then nothing, saved me $1.99 anyway. Today I forgot my ear buds and again, an instant excuse to not go to the gym or utilize the app--but I dealt with it. I had a great training time this morning resuming week 4 of the program, and while I tend to be a "no limits" and a "no pain no gain" type of person, I realize I have limits! -- I can handle the rapid heartbeat during the transitions of alternate jog/walk modes, I can handle the burning or otherwise throbbing in my calves, I can handle my shirt rising above my pants, or straps falling down my shoulders and I can especially handle the tear drops of sweat all over my entire body--but what I cant handle--- is having to go pee and jogging at the same time! I do have my limits and I now Know my limit! despite believing in NO LIMITS! ---
1/2 way through this 12 weeks of my life--I proudly admit I am loving it!! Today while walking almost 2 miles (to get former broke down car), Karma was razoring ahead and I was mildly speed walking (in boots). The thought crossed my mind- I could probably jog this! The more I thought about it, though not at all dressed to jog I really believed I could have jogged it, and probably the entire way! That feeling--of believing in myself -- confirmed for me that I am right on track! :)
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