I am flexing my second week. I am enjoying the freedom of running on my own will-both literally and figuratively! However YOU really tend to get in my way! I think up a plan then you come along and change it convincing me there is something better! There is a familiar saying among the recovery world "you have to get out of your own way". I think genuinely we do have the best plan for us, but somehow we get distracted. We distract ourselves or we allow others to distract us!
This has been a weird week. An emotional one for me that I didn't quite anticipate. I was able to digest Thanksgiving day fairly well, my spirits were running high. It was wonderful to have all my children together. There were some less then wonderful moments too, mainly when the plans we had, had to change due to certain distractions. Its easy to get distracted and lose track of time. Especially when you are dealing with more than one person and have time constraints. I would have enjoyed spending every available minute with my oldest daughter but that wasn't in the plans.
We are so often easily influenced by the company we keep. Its good when different personalities form a pair or a partnership-sometimes. Then other times its not so good! Sometimes a partnership can motivate each-other in different ways and together they thrive. Other times if both are lacking then they wont succeed. And sometimes one may be more industrious than the other and either they tire of the partner who isn't performing and break away, or they resign their own drive and succumb to the low energy of their partner and also quit performing. I have found this to be the case many times. I think its why I prefer working out by myself. Often you hear "get a buddy" to go to the gym with. I have had a few buddies and a few gym trips with them and it isn't that its necessarily bad, I just prefer to be on my own. Its my time, I get in my own head, or out of it. I do not at all enjoy walking along side a friend on the treadmill talking the whole time, nor do I enjoy hearing others do it. Isn't that what a coffee-shop is for? Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me, because I have never liked working out with a friend, or making the plans to do so. Often I would be on task and ready to go but my work out partner was running late, or "not feeling it", etc. then I would apply some peer pressure (I don't really know why!) and sometimes they would come around! Either way if they were on task and sticking to the plan or not my plan remained the same. Its hard to find a partner that will bring the best out of you and for whom you will do the same. I know going it single be it at the gym or in my personal life there is definitely fewer distractions. And less distraction allows me to stick to the plan that works best for me and what I want out of life--less distraction limits the opportunity for "You" to get in my way--and for me to get out of my way!
My kids are huge distractions! Over this past weekend we took another nice hike on a beach and it truly is an amazingly enjoyable experience. We stopped along the way and we talked, laughed and had fun! I could almost say it was a great bonding experience, but that's not really the case since this physical family fun we have is not for "bonding" rather its just for being!-- I am fortunate to have children that are full of energy and enjoy doing things rather than sitting in front of a screen of some sort. (they enjoy their screen time as well don't get me wrong!)
This week I didn't plan on using flex time but I became distracted with work and parenting issues and I let MY time slide to the bottom of the priority list. When there are so many external variables its hard not to be adversely influenced and its easy to lose focus, get off track and abandon plans. I don't foresee any great distractions in the next 8 weeks (Thanksgiving and my daughters visit were GREAT distractions!). I will maximize the use of my available flex time as best I can and I look forward to being back on MY program.
**and running on the beach is AMAZING!! I think I should get extra credit for it because its hard! -- Whats even harder is having to leave the beach! Today she was so beautiful and I left only when I had to pick the kids up!! They are always getting in my way:)

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