11 weeks down....4 DAYS TO GO!!!

There is little to distinguish an excuse from a reason.  A reason is something that explains a situation/circumstance so in context it makes sense and can be clearly understood by most anyone.  An excuse on the other hand is something said to support your decision. An excuse often blames external factors which then gives you a sense of relief  for not performing-an excuse provides you with an (acceptable) "out".  Excuses  allow us to avoid taking personal responsibility for our own actions. When we have a reason for a change in our plans we have accepted responsibility and we have chosen to change our plan of action. I don't like excuses, I strive for personal accountability and therefore personal responsibility.

 84 days behind me and 4 more in front of me. Here I sit with tea and honey and a box of Kleenex! My ribs hurt from coughing so much and my chest feels like its on fire. -- I am grateful my lungs have opened a bit more since the weekend. I can inhale without choking so the self care remedies I am applying are working. At first I refused to acknowledge any sickness in me.  I decided it was allergies, even calling it a summer cold (despite being Winter time- but hey this is So.Cal living!). I resigned over the weekend and accepted the fact that this 12 week plan of mine is not ending the way I imagined.  --. I cant say "didn't end"  because it wont end until Saturday, when the  Carmel Valley 5k is completed. --as for this week I imagined myself running an easy 1-2 miles almost daily in order to conquer the 3 mile run Saturday.  That's just not happening:(   and that's OK. It is what it is.  I'm not going to make any excuses, I don't need to.  I am accountable to myself and I don't want to tell myself lies or excuse my self for not reaching my goals.  When you lie to yourself it makes it so much easier to lie to others, and then its easier for you to live the lie.

This 12 weeks did not have the end result I was hoping for. So, since quitters never win and  winners never quit I wont call it a  total fail,  I will call it a "miss". All things remain in place and I will continue my pursuit and journey on towards the Scottsdale Giants Race!! It is March 8, which is 7 weeks away.  Realistically I will have 6 weeks to prepare for it. Which would then be a total of 18 weeks of life style change--all my tools remain actively in use, my mind set is "in it to win it", and I cant wait to see what the end of the next 6 weeks will result in!--- I'm not getting too excited about the Scottsdale Race since there are lots of logistics that need to be squared away as well as Mom duties.--(namely basketball for 2 kids, baseball for 2 kids and softball for 1!)

As for now- I have 4 days to best prepare myself for the Carmel Valley 5k. Not much more can be done other than trying my best-and the best is what will come!